Thursday, May 5, 2011

To Whom I Can Never Repay

I am sure most of you are aware that this Sunday is Mother's Day (Chad that hint is for you). Mother's day for many of you is a day to celebrate your mothers and it is this for me also. However, it also brings up some difficult topics around our house. In a way Mother's Day brings up some emotions that are not exactly joyful. When I think of Mothers I think of my amazing mom and grandmothers. I also think of how blessed I am to be the mother of four. Wow thats a lot of kids by 28. But one of the things that pops into my head is how there are two other mothers in this world who don't have their beautiful children to wake them up and call them blessed. In fact, one child will be spending the day with me. There are two other women that I owe the greatest gratitude toward and can never repay. These women are the birth mothers of my children. It is sad to say but it is sometimes easy to overlook them in our day to day life. But, this week in particular must be very difficult on a birth mother. They are mothers and have children alive in this world, who will be blessing someone else. Can you imagine?
These women are two women who I have never met, will probably never meet, and who I have the utmost respect for. When I think of things like this I also think about in the future. I know the kids will be curious about their birth parents. The one thing I want them to understand is that they were gifted(not given away) to us because of love. Their birth mothers loved them so much that they were willing to personally hurt for a long time so that their children could be raised in our family.  I try to think about if I was in their circumstances could I have gifted my child to someone else?  I am just not sure I am that strong of a woman.  But, God did not put that in my path.  He gave me the path of being an adoptive mother.
I also think about the responsibility that the mothers have given to Chad and I.  They have faith that we will raise their children in a loving home.  That we will bring them up to have more than they could.  I sometimes wonder, am I disappointing them?


  1. Hi - my husband and I along with a board of directors just launched a nonprofit last month (The Sparrow Fund - to give grants to adoptive families. We are trying to get adoptive families who blog to post about it to spread the word. If you have any interest, can you email me? We'd love to have you!

  2. You are not a disappointment! When those mothers left their children with someone when they could not care for them.... I am sure they probably thought or even prayed that they would be loved and kept safe. Your family can give that and more to them! And the amazing part is that Our God knew this plan for YOUR children before they were even born! ....where ever they were born. And He now smiles on you for being obedient to Him