One day during my prayer time I pray "Oh how my heart longs to have my family together." I have laid my heart out for our heavenly father, a few weeks ago we were together, one family unit of six in the middle of Africa. Soon we will be a unit again this time in America. I am doing my best to stay positive in my bubble bath thoughts but sometimes I just find myself having a pitty party. Dotting on the negative has done nothing for me in the past and I am trying to avoid that as much as possible. I know that nobody shows up to my pitty parties but satan and myself. I keep remembering the verse “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” I have seen this verse hundreds of time painted on a small picture in a wooden frame hanging in my in-laws home. Maybe I need to make one of these for my own home. I repeatedly pray God you know the desires of my heart.
I have known of this verse every since I was little. But the true meaning of it has only recently been made clear to me. “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” This does not mean that what I want he will get for me. I remember reading this as a little girl and thinking of physical wants. I can recall praying for things and thinking this verse meant God would give those things to me. Man did I have it wrong. The part I was missing was the “delight.” I mistook delight as praying. What I now know is that to “delight yourself in the Lord” is to spend time with him in a intimate relationship. It is very difficult to explain this relationship unless you yourself have experienced it. What I have learned is that by delighting and remaining in Him the desires of my heart change. I no longer use this verse as an excuse to ask for things I don’t need but it is now for me to understands what He asks of me. God fulfills this scripture in my life by radically changing the desires of my heart. I now desire to please Him, to do what he calls me to do, to obediently follow him, no matter the costs. Right now the cost is being apart from my family. When you write it all down it doesn’t seem like to much to ask but upon further investigation I am so very blessed. I am just away from my son, He gave his only son to die for me.