Tuesday, January 31, 2012

My Hallelujahs

I love worshipping him by singing praises and reading his word but the greatest way for me to show my adoration and devotion is by obeying. Sending praises to God is amazing but in a way they are just words. James says in verses 2:17, “Faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.” The greatest way to show your faith and devotion is by deeds. What better deeds than the one God has asked you to do. God has taught me this lesson many times and it is one that we will always be learning. It is difficult to understand just how much Jesus gave for us. He gave me life, how can I ever repay him. The truth is I can't and I am not expected to and should not try.  But I can obey Him.
During the rough times my journal has became tear stained, my face became tear streaked, and my heart poured out.  I can not come up with the words to express how I feel, I can not create new words, and there are just not words in the English language to explain my emotions.  I wish there were songs to express these feelings, I would sing them if I knew them, if I had been blessed with any amount of musical talent.  But He, my heavenly Father knows what I would say if I could, He knows what I would sing if I could, He understands.  Jesus knows at these moments my Hallelujahs to Him are in my tears.  My praises or my Hallelujahs are sent to Him in my prayers and cries.  This is better than any well written or beautifully sung worship song.  They are better than any Hallelujah.


  1. This post reminds me of Amy Grant's song "Better than a Hallelujiah". Google the words if you get a minute. Here are some of them. "We pour out our miseries, God just hears a melody. Beautiful, the mess we are. The honest cries of breaking hearts are better than a Hallelujiah."

  2. Holly -

    I have seen your 'Gotcha Day' video of Nolan on You Tube and because he reminds me so much of a former foster child, I checked out your blog. What a series of events and what lessons the Lord is teaching you. I want you to know that I am praying that soon your family will be re-united!